Our Bubble

For five days and four wonderful nights Miss M, G and I lived in our hospital room bubble.  We had a room to ourselves.  From outside the window we could see a beautiful, big tree, I had my iPhone to play music and i had meals delivered and treats arrived daily.  It was so lovely, it was hard to leave.  I was excited to get our girl home but a part of me did not want to leave the cosy bubble.  My stomach still felt tight and I felt nervous leaving incase some thing happened with my stitches.

Our little girl is just divine.  She feeds well, sleeps well and is so, so cuddly.  She lays happily on G's chest.  She knows his voice when he walks in to the room.  She is just the yummiest.  I look forward to Master O and Miss S visiting.  I miss them and cant wait for them to meet their little sister.  I feel so blessed.

A magical day!

At 10.24am on 23 November 2012, G and I welcomed our little girl Miss M into the family.  Born a healthy 5kg and 56cm long.  Due to her size I had a c-section.  Not some thing I particularly wanted however we needed to do what wwas best for bub.  The procedure itself too ao little time, before we knew it the doctor pulled out from my belly our baby.  Wow.  It was amazing.  Incredible.  She let out a mighty cry and I smiled.  A beautiful gift, a girl.  Wow.  I was so relieved.  

After such a full on year with work and family, I was so relieved.  And she was perfect.  I remember just smiling, so happy, my heart filled with such love.  This calmness washed over me, this peaceful feeling from within.

They took her over to be weighed and checked with G following, camera ready.  I laid on the operating table wih my eyes closed, overwhelmed with so many emotions.  G came back with watery eyes, 'we had a girl.  She's perfect, babe.'  My eyes watered. Wow, again.  I closed my eyes again.  I have totally trust and faith that G will look after bub and what needs to happen, and me as I lay on the table still being worked on.

G returned by my side agin.  "She is 4.988kgs, babe.'  He had tears in his eyes and asked me, "are you okay?'  My eyes were watering too.  My heart just exploded with love watching this amazing man with tears in his eyes.

Feeling the love today

Loui and Trish, the coffee stand team downstairs from my office are so lovely.  They gave me a free chai latte to try a few weeks ago.  It was delicious.  I now have one either once a day or every other day.  They gave me a free hot chocolate when they had no chai yesterday.  Today they gave me a free donut twist which was just divine.  They are such a lovely couple and so generous.

A bush walk with the kids around Cammeray and down to the park.  They had so much fun, in fits of laughter trying to roll down the hill. 

Foggy start to the day. Was very mysterical driving across the bridge.  Kids loved it.  They are so observant, curious and a joy. 

Happiest girl in the world

Sienna fills me with love.

She makes me laugh.

She lives

I've had some tired days, felt some very mild nausea and there have been moments where I'm out of breath or dizzy but no real symptoms.  Or are they symptoms and I'm just in denial or needing to feel strong symptoms so I'm more confident the hormone levels are high and the bub is growing.  Good and bad as I pray this bub sticks. 

I had my blood test yesterday and go for another on Thursday.  My scan is still another 16 days away.  I'm excited. Nervous. Thrilled. Hopeful.

Monday I felt really tired and ordinary so G cooked dinner for us.  It was great. I got to rest, sit and play with kids.  It really helped.

Last night he was home for dinner, no gym.  Kids love having him home.