Feeling the love today

Loui and Trish, the coffee stand team downstairs from my office are so lovely.  They gave me a free chai latte to try a few weeks ago.  It was delicious.  I now have one either once a day or every other day.  They gave me a free hot chocolate when they had no chai yesterday.  Today they gave me a free donut twist which was just divine.  They are such a lovely couple and so generous.

A bush walk with the kids around Cammeray and down to the park.  They had so much fun, in fits of laughter trying to roll down the hill. 

Foggy start to the day. Was very mysterical driving across the bridge.  Kids loved it.  They are so observant, curious and a joy. 

Happiest girl in the world

Sienna fills me with love.

She makes me laugh.

She lives

I've had some tired days, felt some very mild nausea and there have been moments where I'm out of breath or dizzy but no real symptoms.  Or are they symptoms and I'm just in denial or needing to feel strong symptoms so I'm more confident the hormone levels are high and the bub is growing.  Good and bad as I pray this bub sticks. 

I had my blood test yesterday and go for another on Thursday.  My scan is still another 16 days away.  I'm excited. Nervous. Thrilled. Hopeful.

Monday I felt really tired and ordinary so G cooked dinner for us.  It was great. I got to rest, sit and play with kids.  It really helped.

Last night he was home for dinner, no gym.  Kids love having him home. 

I had to do a tan on Friday night.  The kids stayed with G.  I returned home just before them.  The kids came racing in all excited and loud.  They told me they had the best time.  They make me laugh.  I'm so pleased they had such a good time with G.  They talked, talked and bounced around so excited it was hard to get them in to bed.

During the day G had to wrestle the cat in to the travel bag.  I nearly wet myself laughing as G described how he had hair all through his hair, up his nostrils as the cat refused to get in the bag and had all his legs out like he was parachuting, then he scratched him trying to escape.

It was a big day.  G did well.

Lunch of the verandah with Miss S.  It was great. 

Ham sandwich and earl grey tea for Miss S.

Tuna sandwich and warm lemon water for me.

Miss S brought her new note book that she has titled: My Great Adventures.

She wrote all day long.  I felt like I was a living Speak and Spell.

Her writing is so neat, her spelling and grammer are improving so fast.

This morning she had an assessment at gymnastics.  She is such a natural.  She needs to go up to an older class because she is just bored waiting for the others to wobble along the beam or stumble through kartwheels or rolls.

Waverton Park, breath of fresh air

This year Master O's soccer training is at Waverton Park.  A stunning location where you can walk or use the grass park area.

There were little tracks to explore and it was a great way to finish up a busy day.

Miss S and I went for a walk, it was a beautiful sunny afternoon.

Miss S loves to write so we sat and she wrote stories in her new book.

I had acupuncture and consult today.  Feeling good.  Feeling excited, even though it is early days.  I did another pregnancy test.  As tragic as this is, I took a little video of the second line developing on the test. I couldn't help.  I can't believe we got the one shot in.  G is so proud of himself.

A walk at Manly, watching some volley ball, Miss S cheering (was so funny), ice cream and a lazy Sunday afternoon.  Very happy.

She is so delightful and she is so playful and cheeky with G. She makes him laugh.

Master O is wondering how he is going to eat through the thick chocolate dipped cone.

Miss S is tucking in to a cup with sprinkles and chocolate sauce, her favourite.

I love walking around chatting with Master O.  He is so observant and curious.  It's wonderful.

(Master O wearing his favourite shirt and shoes)

 

Yesterday G grabbed some groceries for the week, I picked the kids up and we were all home for dinner. It was great.  G has alot of things going on with work and pulling together a contract so it was great to see him laugh with us at dinner.

I couldn't wait

I'm suppose to wait until tomorrow or Wednesday to test.  Can I wait that long?  No.  If we were home on Saturday and not at the wedding I might have tested Saturday night.

This morning I got out the test.  3 long minutes.  Geoff dozing with the test in his hand.  I'm getting ready for work and preparing kids lunches to keep distracted.  3 minutes!  Then I go and check.

Bingo!  A micracle.  We're pregnant.  The one shot we had before Geoff went to Canberra, and it worked!  Wow.

Geoff wasn't surprised.  He said that he knew.  My body has been so hot, there was an interesting mood swing that Geoff probably thought was hormonal. But it wasn't, I tell myself.

Yahoo.  Two pink lines.  We're going to have a baby in November!  Very Exciting.



Country Wedding

This Saturday we attended Kye and Rhiannan's wedding.  Geoff's cousin.  It rained three days straight and the come the wedding the rain eased and they were married on the pier and the Toronto Yacht Club.  It was nice.  This was the first time I got to meet Geoff's family.  I'd heard so many stories about them that I was really looking forward to meeting them. 

Majority of the family are still based in Tamworth.  There were so many first and second cousins it was fascinating.  They were all so lovely and interesting in their own ways.  I had such a great time.

What I learnt about country weddings: 
- You get to watch the football from our table during the reception and speech. Love that.
- If its free alcohol, no one leaves till the bar runs out of alochol. 
- You must dance. 
- Family is the most important thing in life. 
- If some one doesn't finish their meal its pickings for others. 
- By the end of the night most women had their shoes off and were jumping around on the dance floor.
- You can stand up straight and be asleep at the same time.
- Never act surprised, even when there is a tokin Egyptian man married to a cousin at the wedding.
- Don't drink herbal tea (my mistake).
- If you order lemon, lime, bitters you  must say it's Vodka when they look suspiciously at your drink.

I had acupuncture today. It was lovely, it really helps me slow down and relax.  I'm day 22.  For me this means 5 more sleeps and I can test.

I've felt a few pangs today on the left side.  Once of the right.  I'm hoping its implantation and not my breakfast and lunch talking.

Lily said my pulse was good, glow on my face is good, eyes looking good. She would like to do blood tests on hormones but its wait and see at this stage as I'm taking the progesterone.

Is it the calm before the storm.  Things are very slow paced, not much going on.  Generally, it means enjoy the slow pace before the busy period ahead.  I'm on the count down at the moment before I can test. So the week is dragging on.

G thinks I must be pregnant because I a space cadet.  So vague and just in another world. I laugh it off but he's right.  I wonder if the Clexane is slowing me down as it thins my blood. (some thing to google later)

Yesterday I was a bit on edge and not myself.  I must stop irrational fears swalling me up and draining my mood and energy.  G noticed my sullen mood and tried to make me laugh and snap me out of it.  To his best efforts it was impossible.  To his cerdit, we did end up laughing before bed.

Where is my head!

I am just so vague at the moment.  I'm so slow, or would some people say that I'm just calm and at a normal pace?!  I'm not frustrated by it, I actually find it quite funny as I just can't rush.  And certainly not like I used to.  I'm not concerned about picking the pace up, forgeting things, misplacing things.  Oh dear, maybe that's the acupuncture :))

I look at Little T curled up and think, oh how lovely that would be

(Little T playing peek-a-boo. He loves playing under the sheets)

I had to start taking Clexane Saturday night.  I sat on the bed, it was 2am.  I couldn't bring myself to do it.  The needle was way to sharp.  Thankfully it wasn't huge, and it was only 40mg, but it couldn't get my head around doing it.

I asked G if he'd help me.  He'd just got home after a 12hour day with his cousins at the races and drinking at Darling Habour.  I knew he was dead tired.  I stood holding the needle.  'Can you help me?' I asked.  'I can't do it.'

He smiled, 'I don't think I'm too drunk.'  We both laughed.  I didn't care, I couldn't do it myself anyway.

G went through the checklist making sure I got the air out of the needle etc.  G pinched the skin on my stomach and in the needle went.

Ouch. Oh. It hurt.  I couldn't look.  It hurt so much.  oh.

Then G says, 'are you sure you got the air out?'

I look stunned.  'I'm confident I did,' I tell him.

I hope I don't die in my sleep if there was air in there, what will happen!?  G said go and google it.

As it went in to my tissue I'm fine, the problem is if it's in a vein.  From the study I hear G snore loudly.  The cat runs to the study.  I smile.  I should be fine.  But G is going to have to do this each night

We spent the warm Sunday walking along Manly beach, it was great to chat, walk and get some sun.  G reached for my hand as we strolled along, it was nice.

(Brass sculptures along the walk).

He updated me on stories about his cousins and their night out.  Starting from Warwick Farm races and in to the city for dinner and drinks the night before.  I picked G up about 1am, he did so well to be up and moving today.

It was a relaxing day.  I felt quite tired from a busy week so it was great to exercise and then spend the afternoon watching the football and reading the papers - my favourite things to do from 4pm Sunday!

The sweetist man

I sent G a message from soccer tonight saying we'd made it, Master O doing well.  Sienna and I were sipping Earl Grey tea at the windy park watching Master O.  With 20 minutes to go up strolls G, right behind me.  Wow.  What a fantastic surprise.

He'd driven all the way back from Canberra after two full days of work, and he stopped via the park to see us.  Hugging, kissing and giving him a squeeze I was so excited.  We watched Master O train.  I know Master O would have loved that G cared enough to come by to watch him.  He always asks where G is, when will he be home, will he watch me.

It was actually Sienna this time that did a 'Welcome Home' sign.  She was looking forward ot surprising him.

When we got home I asked G why he called by.  He said, 'there was no point going home if you weren't going to be there.'  I thought this was a wonderful reply. 

Made me warm and feel loved up.

Master O started soccer training tonight.  First night back and he got through the drills well and even scored a goal in the practice game.  I wish he realised his potential.  I don't push him but there are times I want to yell 'come on Osc' from the sideline.  My mum was always so encouraging, never pushy or adding pressure when I was competing in gymnastics.  I hope I remain that way with the kids but I know there are times when the competitive me is dancing on the inside wanting to push them a little harder as their both very fortunate natural athletes.

After training we played in the park for a while.  The kids spun themselves dizzy on the tea cup.  They laughed, and laughed until they couldn't sit straight and practically rolled out of the tea cup.  It was so funny.

ooooh, last night I had the ovulation sign so G and I got 'busy.'   I admit I was very excited.  It was earlier than I thought though but nonetheless the signs were there so I gave G the nod and the wink.  He just laughs at me.

Today, Monday, I got kids up and straight in to the car in order to get to RPA by 7.30am.  Miss S woke as bright as the sun. I had an apple juice ready for her and she was all set.  Master O was alot harder to move. Plus he insisted on getting out of his pyjamas and in to his uniform.  I took a deep breath, trying not to look to hurried.  I used the soft coaxing voice to usher them up and in to the car.  As I drove off towards my mum's I was elated, it only took 12minutes.

Car was packed: school bags, lunches, breakfast, Sienna's uniform and shoes, my lunch, lemon water and chopped carrots.  Mum, the best mum in the world, was waiting at her gate to help the kids inside and get them breakfast. I am so blessed, she is so wonderful.

I made it to RPA with some time to spare, a record 27 minutes. Very happy.  After chatting to the specialist and doing the bloods I headed to work looking forward to the day.

RPA advised that afternoon that I had the LH surge so I have to start on the progesterone on Wednesday and Clexane on Saturday!   wow, its all happening.  Fingers crossed we hit the mark as Geoff's away tonight.   I thought I might have another 3 days of blood work but no, I hit the jackpot on cycle day 12.

Sunday we all went ice-skating.  Miss S was so excited as dear Rose passed on Sammy's old skate boots, they were hardly worn, Miss S was so grateful.  She is very lucky. 

Miss S wore them all morning around the house.  I reminded her she'd blunt the blade so she laid down with them on, it was very funny.

Oscar sped around the ice-skating rink as Geoff timed him.  Miss S let go of my hand half way through the two hour session, it was great to see her confidence grow.  The skating boots were fantastic.

Fun day.

Acupuncture today!  More herbs!  I bet I lay that golden egg!

(feeling excited)

On Monday I have to be at RPA for blood tests before 8am.

Not sure how I'm going to manage this with the kids as Geoff will be away.  Kids won't be happy about having to get up and be in the car by 7.15am.  And kids aren't happy when Geoff is away.  Particularly Oscar.
Should be an interesting week.

So thoughtful

I got home from a long, long day at work and G had bought me two delicious portugese tarts.  Very thoughtful.  He also bought food for dinner, salmon with an avocado salad.  It was perfect.  I didn't even have to ask.  It felt nice to be looked after like that.  Later G pulled out my favourite chocolate chip cookies which he got me hooked on months ago.  We laughed as I got a container to put them in so they stay fresh.  G didn't think they'd make it in to the container!

It's the small thoughtful gestures that mean so much.

That is love.

mmmm

Be patient

JC today:

Only one vessel has ever reached the very bottom of the Earth's deepest ocean. The bathyscape Trieste was designed by an Aquarian, Auguste Piccard, and crewed by his son, Jacques, plus a navy officer called Don Walsh. After a four-hour dive, 35,000 feet down, their landing stirred up so much sediment the ocean was like 'a bowl of milk.' If only they'd stuck around long enough for the water to clear!

You're now reaching deep into the bravest part of your heart. Withstand the pressure. Be patient.

TimeZone basketball champions

G and Master Ty both set out to beat the highest score on the basketball game at TimeZone.  They were so focused and determined to beat the highest score.  That just happened to be set by the boys, 30year old men) that were standing behind them.

Ty was so happy to get the highest score, he thanked G and everyone was standing around watching.  Miss S one the most tickets she'd ever won and bought a rubber spider and snake with them.  I thought she might have gone for some thing girlie like a bracelet :)

Master O won himself some tickets and bought lollies for everyone.  He is good at sharing.

Welcome home

G is back from a few days away for work.  Little T wraps himself around the computer while G works on the computer.

Little T loves company and will move from room to room with you.  He doesn't always want a pat, he just like the company. Its adorable.  We have all fallen in love with him.

Tennis, any one?

This year the kids have started tennis lessons at school.  They received their own rackets and are very excited about improving.  They're confident already about their ability despite losing 3 balls on the first practice session at home.

Master O tends to just hit hard with a huge underhand.  Miss S goes over hand and bounces them on the garage roof.  Both blame the other for losing the balls, its so funny watching them.

(note: Master O in his favourite colour and favourite shoes!)

Beautiful Gift

Beautiful gift from G.  He has great taste.

I love celebrating birthdays, other peoples birthdays.  When it comes to my own, I like to disappear for a week.  Normally in the lead up to my birthday I withdraw and just want to hide away.  I guess there is a part of me that likes to stop and reflects upon life.

This year, more so than others, I wanted to just have a quiet one.  I'm not sure why 40 is a big deal.  I feel great at forty.  I feel good physically, although I'd love to have a regular exercise routine, but I feel good.  Mentally, well I'm really moving forward in many ways.  I feel like I'm in a good place in life.

G said he'd booked dinner for us.  I told him I'm happy with an easy dinner at our favourite Japanese Restaurant but G insisted we dress up and not wear jeans.  I couldn't convince him otherwise.  So I got home, got changed, relaxed for a bit.  G wouldn't tell me where we were going or much about dinner and picking the restaurant.  It had been a week of rain so it was great that we had a clear night to go for dinner.

It was the perfect night for outside dining  The sky was clear, the stars were out, it was a lovely balmy evening.  We ate at Aqua at North Sydney, with the perfect backdrop of Sydney Harbour.  It was magnificent.  In I strolled to find my closest and dearest friends at the table waiting for me.  A huge, huge, huge surprise.  They looked gorgeous as always and I'd secretly wished I'd worn some thing nicer, I laughed to myself at this thought.  A very wonderful G had organised the surprise.  I was shocked.  I would never had guessed, it was a school night, busy lives...  that this was all organised, wow.  Naturally, I then felt overwhelmed, embarrassed and uncomfortable with all eyes on me.  As I said thank you and thank you and thanks for coming we then slipped in to laughter and stories for the evening.

As we ate and drunk under the stars at Aqua Dining it made me realise how blessed I am to have these two wonderful friends in my life.  We reminisced and laughed so much the boys just shook their heads and laughed with us.

 

I was so overwhelmed by the evening.  G had organised a wonderful night.  The most memorable birthday I've every had.  It was truly beautiful and a lovely surprise.  He really out did himself.

O the All Star

I think Converse are going to run in the family now.  I got Master O his first pair of Converse shoes.  He got to pick the type he wanted.  He went in to the shop in his favourite red Converse shirt, red cap and grey shorts.  The sales assistant helped him as he checked out the options.

Master O asked her, "do you know what my favourite colour is?"

"Hmmm," she said, taking in Master O in red.  "No," she smiled.

"Red."  He exclaimed.  He tried on the red boots and he knew they were the ones for him!

An Idiot Abroad

Saturday night.  Japanese for dinner. Relaxed on the lounge.  Tonight we watched Graham Norton and An Idiot Abroad.  We laughed so hard at Karl from An Idiot Abroad. 

Tears of laughter, belly cramps, it was too funny.  Stretched out over each other, Earl Grey tea, chocolate biscuits for G.  Great night after a big week.

I never knew....

I learnt something new about myself tonight.  When I scream, I run on the spot with my hands on the side of my face.

G and I were sitting watching tv.  Little T was outside on the verandah watching the night bugs fly about.  I then heard this unusual rustling sound.  I peaked out of the glass windows to see what Little T was up to.

It looked like Little T was carrying a twig in his mouth and he was coming back along the verandah towards me.  I said to G, "what's he got?"

G wasn't too concerned as he watched Little T run inside.

"Oh my god," I yelled, it's a mouse.

G jumped up, "what!"

Sure enough, Little T had caught his first mouth.  He dropped it near G's feet and the mouse took off.

I screamed, my hands going up to my head, my feet running of the spot, 'aaaaaaaargh'

G was amused but I'm not sure at me or Little T.

"Get the mouse, get the mouse."  I yelled as I jumped on the lounge.  The mouse ran behind a painting that was leaning against the dining room wall.

G causally disappears towards the bedrooms.  I'm panicked.  "where are you going?"  The G returns with the metal base ball bat. 

"You can't kill it with the bat, blood will go every where!"  I've stopped running on the spot but my heart is still racing.  "Hurry, babe, oh my god, you have to get it."

G grabs a tea towel. Little T has his eyes focused on the painting waiting for the mouse.  G lifts the painting and the mouse bolts for the kitchen.  I scream again.  I'm running on the spot praying the mouse is caught.  There is no way I could sleep if it disappeared in the house.

A second later G marches outside with the mouse in the tea towel.  Its mangled from Little T and G needs to kill it so its not in any more pain.  Gross.  G doesn't want to do it but knows he must.  I feel for him, I don't know if I could've done it.

The cat is looking for his mouse and G takes the poor little things body upstairs to the bins.

While upstairs I'm wiping things down, washing my hands.  I walk back to the lounge room and Little T comes out from under the dining table scaring me.  I scream.  I thought it was a possum.

G comes running back down. "what is it?"

I nearly wet myself laughing at myself.  Typical me, scaring myself.  Finally G and I can laugh. Wow, what a night!

Happiness

 The ultimate source of happiness lies in the quality of your thoughts.

A whole cycle of confusion

I've been taking the herbs for a week.  Already I have noticed some changes physically.  I'd also like to think I'm a little less stressed.  Especially given I had the two kids plus a busy, busy working week all on my own.  My cycle has already changed though.  This has really surprised me.  It's frustrating because I was so used to my cycle, now though I have no idea when I'll ovulate or when cycle day 1 will happen.  It's good there is a balance taking place so I'm consciously letting go and allow the herbs to do their thing.

When we try next month I will be at rpa for blood work to confirm ovulation.  This will help in pinpointing our launch date now that my cycle has changed with the traditional chinese medicine.

Withdrawals

Mister G in the Hunter Valley for a conference for the week.  The kids have missed him.  I think the cat goes through withdrawals too, he doesn't poo when G's away.  He's only done one poo in 5 days!  He is normally a one per day cat too.  G phoned late one afternoon and we put him on speaker.  The cat ran to the litter tray.  We all laughed and waited...... he only did a wee.

I've been reading up on chinese herbs and acupuncture.  It's very interesting reading.  Close friends have conquered many serious alignments using traditional chinese medicine.  One night the cat sat on the computer, wanting my attention, it was very cute.

The kids have been so funny this week.  They've had a few moments but they've played so happily; Oscar with his lego, Sienna with her dolls and she plays teacher.  They also have loved watching replays of Young Talent Time.

Great week.  Looking forward to G coming home.

It's nearly footie season again

I must admit, I'm excited about footie season starting again.

We had a function Saturday night and missed an awesome game; the All Stars just beating the Indigenous team.

I was able to check the score from the table at the work function which only served to get me fired up when there was 10minutes to go and the All Stars were 4 down.

Tony Squires, sports commentator on Channel 7, and MC for the night should have at least mentioned the final score for those sports fans.  Tony Squires was very funny, quite a surprise so it was more entertaining than last year.  Master G looked great.

Turning 9!

Master O turned 9!  He's growing fast.  Moving from Thomas the Train, to cars, to Lego.  Curious, literally, loves an adventure and to explore new things, he is delightful.  His hugs are sincerely, his laughter a joy.

Tonight after teppanyaki with O's mates we drove around the city.  As G and I listened to the boys talking and observing the lights and people around town we couldn't help but smile and have the occasional burst of laughter - it was like listening to a younger version of the 'Inbetweeners.'  O's mate was surprised at all the lights still on in the city.  O informed him it was because that's when the cleaners work, there is normally one cleaner per floor, they do it before the weekend... His mate just nodded.  Who would think of this stuff.
There is a part of me that wants him to stay 8.  New challenges await though entering high school, selecting a career, his first girlfriend, his first break up, learning to drive a car.

Closer together

Dinner was at our local Japanese restaurant as the end of the shopping day.  A successful day, one that G found some shoes, finally, after a long search.

Over dinner G shared a past story from his life with a girlfriend at the time, S.  Listening to what unfolded and what had happened really gave me a better understanding of G.  It also, in another way, really reassured me of G's commitment to me, the kids and our relationship.  And an appreciation of how much he opened up his life to me and gave to me.  It was only me that couldn't ask for help or communicate clearly.   I've not doubted that G isn't in it, we've certainly had moments that have confused me but G has always made me see that he's in it.  I'm the one that will hit a rough moment in time and put a wall up.  G's taught me not to, taught me to talk, be fair and stay on topic.

A few things happened this weekend that made me see more clearly his commitment to me.  His love.  It was nice. It felt like I was moving in to a better place after dealing with some trauma.

Tonight I cleared the kids lego, sorted out their clothes, washed their sheets and prepared for the new week.  It's Oscar's birthday coming up.  He's turning 9! Already.

Akuna Bay and Church Point

Weekend time!  It was the first clear weekend with no rain when we could get out on the bike.  We rode the Thumper.  It felt great.  G pointed the bike north and picked the best ride considering the weekend traffic and double demerit points.  We rode freely through the winding roads around Akuna Bay and Church Point.  It was wonderful.

We stopped for lunch at Church Point.  Sharing a seafood platter, it felt like we were a million miles from home as we ate on the water, relaxed and content.

The lookout was awesome.  It doesn't take long from home before we're surrounded by forest and standing on a mountain's edge appreciating the beautiful scenery.

Master G

Looking north to Umina and Ettalong

Sea planes fly over and a scattering of sail boats enjoy the harbour

I'm savouring the time with G before the Canberra trips take him away from home for a longer period of time and when his weekends will be down time and relaxing from a busy and stressful week.

Australia Day

This is the first Australia Day in three years that we were not up with the sun and heading to Clontarf Beach.  The cloudy day and sprinkles of rain brought a relaxed morning and easy day at a friend's home in Beauty Point.

The kids love seeing G's friends and Jaz and Xman.  They play so easily and happily all day.  It's wonderful.

Great day.  Wonderful company. Glass of wine. Nice food. Some laughs.  My friend Rose came along, and its always so good to catch up.  Its amazing how we've reconnected after some years busy in our own worlds.  Our regular dinners with or without the kids are such a good debrief on life.

Today was a perfect way to wrap up the end of school holidays as well.

All Stars!

I'm not sure what this says about me, but I just bought my first pair of All Star Converse shoes!  they are the slim line style.  They are so comfortable.  I wouldn't have given Converse a second glance if it wasn't for G.  We also bought Master O a Converse shirt.  It's very cool

Need a holiday

Dear Universe

Please send G and I a holiday.  I really need to have some time out.  Even for 5 days.

Yours truly
Exhausted

hmmm

I wish I could help reduce G's stress.  He seems stressed with work, there is alot on, there is alot to get across the line this year and make happen.  I wish I could relieve some of that stress.

Little Delight

Sienna is so funny.  This morning she was just so full of life.  A little off the planet as she jumped, skipped and bounced around.  She is so funny.  An absolute delight with her smile and charm.

She is reading her grown up book using a book mark, just like nanna does.  She calls it her 'chapter book' because it has only chapters, no pictures.  It's call 'Girls Stick Together.'

The numbers add up! But what is the Universe trying to show me!?

Jackie's mum phoned me this morning to confirm my appointment with Lily Liu, a Chinese herbs specialist.  It's hard to get bookings but given that Jackie's family know her they were able to secure an appointment quite quickly, so I'm grateful.

I'm booked for: 2 Feb 2012 at 2pm.  That's quite a play on numbers.

If I add the numbers up: 2+2+2+0+1+2.  It equals: 9.

9 is my life path number!

After mentioning this to G, I will have to make the appointment.  How spooky!

What does all this mean?!  What is the Universe trying to point out at the moment!? 

Dear roller coaster, can you please slow down on the twists and turns!

(another bizarre moment: Last night, 11pm R F#o phoned.  I haven't spoken to him for 18years, since we went our separate ways.  He was very jovial as he reminisced. It was quite funny.  He recalled so much that I'd forgotten about, or never gave much thought to.    He asked loads of questions about what I've been up to.  He wasn't too keen on answering mine as he asked more questions and joked.  He still skis 6 weeks overseas. Parents still at Northbridge. Sister still vet.  Ofcourse I asked him what car he was driving and what bike, lol.  He has a 599 and Ducati 916.  They didn't mean much to me until I looked it up!  I'm puzzled by the random call.

After reading Cainer's stars today I'm really trying to listen to the Universe and my gut.

JC:
The funniest jokes tend to be the ones that touch on taboo topics. When we stray into sensitive territory, all our reactions become exaggerated. Things become either deeply sad or hilariously funny. We are either curious or blissful; full of fear or full of faith. The Moon remains in your sign. A situation is now stirring up a profound emotion within you. That's good, insofar as it is helping you decide what you truly feel about a particular person or situation. Just remember that things are not as immutable as they may seem

My Girl & Litte T